fat girl

That quote is from my friend Jackie.  I laughed so hard when she said it last week, then I had to write it down so I didn’t forget it.  It is so profound I can hardly stand it!

I have realized recently more than ever how my weight dictates my enjoyment of life.  I think sometimes of all the things I am not doing and will not do “until I lose weight.”  My life is on perpetual hold until that magic day when I wake up thin (I wish!).   I am constantly promising myself I will get a handle on things – tomorrow.  I will get on my bike – tomorrow.  I will eat better food and less of the bad stuff – tomorrow.  Then, because those tomorrows never come, my dreams for myself and my life are also never happening.  Staying overweight is keeping my life on hold and I need to understand how cowardly that is. 

I am afraid of living and hoping and trying and failing so I keep the weight on. I hate admitting that, but it’s the cold, hard truth.

So, I can’t blame anyone or anything for what I do or don’t do in life anymore.  I either have to adjust those dreams and accept myself at the size I’m at or I need to do something about it.  I don’t aspire to be the weight I was at 20, but I can be better than I am now. 

I have decided that I am more afraid of wasting (waisting?) my life being overweight than I am of actually doing the work of losing weight.

So here I go.  Wish me luck.

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Friends Forever

July 23, 2009

friends

My kids and I have a family that are among our very best friends.  They used to live in our town and go to the same church as us, but several years ago they moved far, far away.  Now we see them approximately once a year when they visit.  Did I mention they live far away?? 

They are in town this week and we got to see them tonight.  It is always bittersweet because the visits go too quickly and there is so much time in-between them.  But my kids and I are always so blessed by the way it always seems like not a day has passed when we get together – no awkwardness, no hesitations…just right back to that special closeness that is the symbol of true friendship.  We are blessed to have it in our lives no matter how much distance separates us physically.  We know somewhere out there is someone who will always be our friend.

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My friend Karen and I were talking the other day about my lack of motivation to go to work that day.  She recounted an episode of The Mary Tyler Moore show from years ago where Mary was having the same difficulty.  Mary was talking to Ted saying, “You get up in the morning.  You shower.  You put on your makeup.  You have your breakfast.  You go to work. It just happens day after day.”  Ted told her she had to look at it differently.  He said “You get up in the morning!  You shower!  You put on your makeup! You have your breakfast! You go to work!”  This is just the jist of the conversation as Karen remembered it, but it really got me thinking.  The key to the whole thing is really in the punctuation.

Our attitudes about what we do are the difference between it being a joy or a chore.  I can choose to complain about going to work, or I can be happy I have a job.  I can be upset with how little money is in my checkbook, or I can be happy I have a roof over my head and food on the table. 

I remember years back when a man from our church went to India.  When he came back and spoke to the church, he was almost too overwhelmed to describe what he saw.  One thing he said made a huge impact on me.  He said, “We have no idea how rich we are.” 

I have stood at times since then in front of my pantry and thought how someone from underdeveloped nations would see it – they would not be able to imagine such riches.  They would think I was rich just to have so much food to choose from each day.

So tomorrow morning and all the mornings after I am going to try to be like Ted Baxter.  I am going to get out of bed!  I’m going to shower!  I’m going to choose something from my rich pantry and eat breakfast!  I’m going to put on my makeup!  And I’m going to go to the job I am grateful to have!

It’s all in the punctuation.

mom for blog

A client of mine recently contacted me to do a piece for her.  She had a bracelet made by her child on a piece of black string.  It had 7 brightly colored beads on it. The bracelet was her pride and joy.  But she was concerned about longevity.  She wanted to make it a strong piece of jewelry she could wear every day and keep for posterity and did I have any ideas?

The main thing for her and for me was keeping it as close to the original design as possible.  I strung black seed beads and then 4mm onyx beads between the original colored wood beads to hold them in place.  I used pewter letter beads to spell out “MOM” in between and finished it off with a toggle closure. The 2009 charm will be a reminder of when her son gave her the bracelet.

I really admired her desire to keep the bracelet as close to the original as possible.  She could have added and changed the design to make it more fashionable.  She could have put it away in a drawer and never worn it.  Instead she thought of a way to preserve both the memory of the gift and the original design.  I believe this client and I created something she will be able to treasure for years to come.

What do you think?

salads

I was just putting together the easiest salad recipe I know for my friend Karen’s daughter’s bridal shower, and I thought maybe others would like to have this little gem of a recipe.  It’s always really well-received and I like it because you can throw it together last minute and go.  It’s one my mom used to make and I don’t know the real name, but she gave me some approximations of the amounts she uses years back, and mostly I stick close to them.

Mom’s Favorite Pea Salad

1 lg. pkg, frozen peas

1 cup chopped cheddar cheese

1 cup Spanish salted peanuts

1/4 to 1/2 cup chopped celery

chopped onion

Pour all ingredients in a bowl and add enough Miracle Whip to hold the whole thing together and you’re done!  It can be made quickly before a shower and the peas will thaw pretty quickly.  People always love it and the colors look attractive on the table. 

Enjoy!

Breathe

July 6, 2009

breathe

I’ve been running around this week like a maniac.  Work, soccer, post office, grocery store, home, back to somewhere else and it just never ended.  This is from Leo Babauta at Zen Habits and I wanted to pass it on to all of us who forget to do this regularly:

Breathe.

Breathing can transform your life.

If you feel stressed out and overwhelmed, breathe. It will calm you and release the tensions.

If you are worried about something coming up, or caught up in something that already happened, breathe. It will bring you back to the present.

If you are discouraged and have forgotten your purpose in life, breathe. It will remind you about how precious life is, and that each breath in this life is a gift you need to appreciate. Make the most of this gift.

If you have too many tasks to do, or are scattered during your workday, breathe. It will help bring you into focus, to concentrate on the most important task you need to be focusing on right now.

If you are spending time with someone you love, breathe. It will allow you to be present with that person, rather than thinking about work or other things you need to do.

If you are exercising, breathe. It will help you enjoy the exercise, and therefore stick with it for longer.

If you are moving too fast, breathe. It will remind you to slow down, and enjoy life more.

So breathe. And enjoy each moment of this life. They’re too fleeting and few to waste.

Tip: Put the word “Breathe” as a screensaver or desktop pic, or put it up as a note on your wall or fridge or on your desk. Then do it every time you see the word.


A Born Entrepreneur

July 1, 2009

lemonade

I don’t know if anyone else has been an entrepreneur most of  their life.  From my earliest memories I was selling homemade potholders door-to-door that I made on a loom at home.  I made and sold pom-pom animals around the block.  I had lemonade and Kool-Aid stands.  I even sold my drawings door-to-door.  If I could make something, I figured I could sell it.

This is a habit I have continued to the current day.  I don’t seem to be able to have hobbies.  Everything I do seems to turn into a business somehow.  Things I enjoy become something I try to sell. 

Is it just that I am a born entrepreneur?  Am I just driven?  Am I obsessed with trying to make money?  And if I am, why aren’t i rich??!! 

Don’t get me wrong – I don’t start doing most of these things just to make money.  I usually fall in love doing something and that morphs into trying to sell it or make a business out of it.  Why can’t I just enjoy something without turning it into a job?  Why does my brain always think of new marketing ideas and unexplored niches?

I will be indebted to my childhood neighbors for the many, many homemade items that they bought and childhood businesses they helped to support.   To this day I buy from every kid that comes to the door as payback!   I am indebted to God for giving me a multitude of skills and a passion for creating, and I am so happy to be able to contribute to my family’s income by creating things that people still seem to want to buy.

But sometimes I wish he had given me the ability to just relax!

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