I Am Too Much…

September 25, 2012

I laugh too loudly.  I care too much.  I cry too easily.  I worry a lot.  I over think things. I ask too many questions.  I am too nice.  I  yell too much at sporting events. LOUDLY. I let too many things bother me.  I love too much.

I am who I am and have spent too much of my life apologizing for being “too much.”

Deal with it…or don’t.

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Changing Seasons…

September 3, 2012

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It’s September again! I can hardly believe so much time has gone by!  My daughter is packed and gone for her sophomore year at school, and tonight is my sons’ last night of “freedom” before starting his sophomore year in high school.  This always seems like more of a time to make resolutions than New Years for me.

My son and I have made some resolutions – to try more new things, one of them being food.  No more same old, same old for us all the time.  At least once a week I’m actually going to COOK one of those hundreds of recipes I’ve pinned on Pinterest!

I’m going to start blogging again, and I’m going to put more time into my jewelry business again.  The new position I got at work came with much more hours and stress and my well ran dry creatively.  I don’t like living this way however, and I miss creating so much!  I need to find my artistic side again…

I need my friends more.  I have been so tired I haven’t made time to be social.  That needs to change.  My friends are the best and have been there for me through thick and thin.  Housework can wait. There will always be bills to pay.  I need my friends NOW.

I was recently in the hospital and was very sick.  I was very fortunate to have gotten good news from the myriad of tests they performed on me.  But it could so easily have gone the other way and changed my life forever.  I am grateful and thankful and soooo blessed and I need to remember that more and thank God for my life every day.

Changing seasons…changing life a little every day.

 

Learning to Let Go…

September 10, 2011

When you were 4 days old I went to the grocery store for the first time since you were born…it felt like I had left my arm behind.  You were a part of me.  I cried the whole time.

When you were 5 years old I put you on a school bus on the first day of kindergarten.  I smiled to cover my anxiety and sadness.  I followed the bus and watched you get off and go into the school.  I cried all day and didn’t stop until you got off the bus at the end of the day.

When you were 13 I had to let you go every other weekend.  I had to give you up for half of every holiday… and I died a little inside every time.  It never got easier, and I cried a lot. 

Today I moved you into your college dorm.  I helped you unpack and feather your new nest.  I am so excited for you, and I tried so hard to ease your fears, while pushing down my own. 

It seems like yesterday you were that newborn that I couldn’t bear to leave.  Today I drove away with an aching heart…sadness, pride, joyousness and thankfulness all fighting within me…

…while I cried.

My Baby is 18!!

June 16, 2011

My Baby Is 18!!

I can’t believe it’s here…my darling daughter is 18 today.  18!!! 

There are so many things I haven’t taught her yet…so many failures on my part to teach her what she needs to know before she goes out into the world.  Table manners?  Check.  Wait an hour after eating before swimming?  Check. 

But she still doesn’t know how to budget or balance a checkbook…

 Can I get more time, Lord?? I’m not finished yet!

 

OK, no more excuses.

It’s time.

I’ve been planning this forever.

I’ve used too many excuses to delay starting.

“Someday” is here.

It has to happen.

I’m scared.

I’m excited.

I’m creating the life I want.

I’m going to become the person

I want to spend the rest of my life with.

I’m going to design a life for myself.

It’s time.

Roots and Wings…

June 5, 2011

My daughter graduated from high school last weekend.  We had her graduation party the day after, so I haven’t been blogging due to intense stress and exhaustion! There was excitement, but it was also bittersweet for me – it was a letting go…my little girl is grown up.  She turns 18 in a couple of weeks and then we have her college orientation a day after.  I’m not ready to let go yet!

My mother used to tell me that the two greatest things we can give our children is roots and wings.  Roots to a family bond that keeps them grounded when they are away, and wings so that they can fly off and fulfill their own lifes purpose.  I have tried to give my children deep and strong roots.  The wings part?  Well, we shall soon see.

My Biggest Fan…

May 19, 2011

I have now been making jewelry for about 12 years or so.  When I was in my early years, I got lucky enough to gain a fan named Kim.  She and I went to church together, and I had always admired her style and class, so I was thrilled when she liked my jewelry and asked me to do some custom work for her.  I don’t remember the details but I ended up making her a front toggle necklace in elegant Swarovski Crystals, pearls and Sterling Silver that has been a favorite of hers, and every time she gets compliments (which she says is every time she wears it) she encourages me to make more of this style of necklace. 

In addition, she has since ordered several more of the same necklace – she gave one to her daughter-in-law Keren at her graduation from medical school.  Kim shared this with me:

“My daughter-in-law was in line at Walgreens in Milwaukee when the check-out girl told her how beautiful her necklace was (the one you made identical to mine).  Keren proceeded to tell her that her mother-in-law gave it to her.  The girl then said “I wish I had a mother-in-law like that!”

Kim recently sent me this photo showing both her and her daughter-in-law wearing their necklaces. 

This picture shows Kim’s daughter Tess wearing a different front toggle necklace I made her using black more black onyx and Sterling.

Aren’t they lovely?  Thanks, Kim, for being such a good friend and such a great advertisement for my designs!

So just for you, Kim, here is my most recent necklace (already on display at Trends and Traditions) …a front toggle necklace with Swarovski Crystal, Swarovski pearls and Sterling Silver.

 

More to come, too!

 

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