What I Will Miss…

April 12, 2011

from Glamour Magazine

While I am unexpectedly excited about being downsized recently, I feel like I have to acknowledge how much this job has meant to me.

 First of all, it was my first job after earning my Bachelor’s Degree at 46 years old.  It was a huge boost of confidence to know that I could survive – and thrive – in the workforce after being a stay-at-home mom for 15 years.  I loved my cubicle, my co-workers and my work…it was fulfilling and exciting and I will always be grateful for the opportunity.  It gave me a ton of self-esteem I was lacking, and the knowledge that I could care for my children and support us was empowering.

 Secondly, I will miss working in a field I have always loved.  From the first time I could remember, I was set on being a beautician when I grew up.  The desire to do hair was pushed down for many years, but at 23 years of age I decided to go to Cosmetology School.  I didn’t stay in the industry long, but I have a lifelong love of anything to do with hair and beauty, so working within that industry and putting my knowledge to work was pure joy.

 Third, I will miss the freebies.  As a marketing professional in the beauty products industry, I was given a lot of product to try in order to better market them.  I have had a chance to sample so many great products and add many to my daily must-haves.  To me these were like gold, and I loved being the aunt who gave the awesome beauty bags at Christmas and birthdays! I loved being on the cutting edge of new products and introducing them to the salons.

 So as I bid goodbye to this career, I am sad for some of the things I am losing.  But I really am not losing anything – I learned a lot and I will take those lessons with me wherever I go from here. 

The samples will be sadly missed though…

The Security Myth…

March 10, 2011

 

On January 26, 2011 I received notice that my job was being eliminated along with 74 others.  I had just been downsized.

At first I panicked, which is a normal reaction.  I am a single mom, after all.  What was I going to do?  How was I going to support my family?  What would become of us all in this depressed economy?  For the first week I cried, I prayed, I had massive anxiety issues.  I couldn’t sleep.

Panic is my nature.  Worry is, too.  I am highly emotional, and by my nature I go to these places when things happen.  Then I get very “busy.”  Which I did by going to the local job center and getting paperwork and information going before they even had a chance to schedule anything for all of us at my workplace.  I signed up for a class on Shipbuilding. I had my resume finished and my Linked-In profile updated and started stockpiling toilet paper on sale.

 Then the most amazing thing happened.  While down with a migraine, I had hours on end to think.  I allowed my brain to wander, and it did something that surprised me…it opened up to possibilities.  I started to dream again. I asked myself “what if?”  And it was SO EXCITING! 

In the aftermath of my divorce, I gave up the dreams I had in order to provide for my family.  I was too busy seeking some form of security from the outside world to dream anymore.  I needed a salary.  Benefits.  Stability.  Security.

 But guess what?  For a while I had the salary, benefits, stability, and what I thought was security.  But it really wasn’t security, because I had no way of knowing my company would be sold.  So it was a false security that I bought into for awhile.  Realizing this was a real a-ha! moment for me.  There is no such thing as earthly security! 

 Wow – what a revelation that was to me, and how freeing it was!  It opened the floodgates to ideas and dreams and plans that have obviously been stuffed down inside of me for far too long, things I’d given up on because they didn’t offer the security I thought I needed.

Why was I so willing to look for security in strangers instead of in myself?  Who has more at stake than me to provide for me and my family?  I know my responsibilities and the capabilities I have…who better to trust my children and myself to?

So I’m going to trust in myself and go with my dreams.  I don’t know what the future holds or how things will work out.  But I do trust God, and I know He put these dreams inside of me for a reason.  He will work with me and through me.  I have a chance to finally live the life I want to live, on my terms, in my own way.  What I thought was a disaster could be the biggest opportunity of my life.

 I’m putting my money on me.

Image from http://www.colectiva.tv/wordpress/lang/en-us/2008/08/

Blessings All Around Me…

August 22, 2010

Recently I was lying on a fabulous down comforter on a bed in a Hilton hotel room in Minneapolis, soaking up the cool air conditioning and luxurious surroundings , pondering my life.  A year ago I was hauling cases of beer out to customers’ cars while in college and now I’m staying in great hotels on all-expenses-paid business trips in an industry I’ve always been fascinated with.  I am awed and overwhelmed with my continued blessings.  What changes a year makes!

A year ago I was afraid I wasn’t going to find a job to support myself and the kids.  My worry was off the charts.  Now I go to work every day thankful and happy with my lot in life.  I love to give this job all I have not only because I’m thankful but I truly find it exciting and challenging and downright fun some of the time.  I am so truly blessed to have all that I have.

I am glad that the memories of a year ago are still so fresh in my mind and that I can continue to be so thankful.  The job at the liquor store was essential for us to survive while I went to school, and I am grateful to the owners for their help and understanding.  It was a great people place.  But now I work with people in an industry that has always been a fascination to me, I love the job and I am experiencing so many new things.  I am growing and changing and it’s such a good thing.

Growth hurts.  Change can hurt.  But it can also bring about new experiences that never would have happened without the pain.  I have hurt, but I have grown.

Personalizing my new home

October 28, 2009

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I have a new home…well, an office…O.K, it’s a cubicle.  But it’s not just any cubicle, it’s MY cubicle at my wonderful new job. 

 I think this job is perfect for me.  I’m in Marketing, which is all about coming up with ideas to sell the brands that are assigned to me.  I have to also take products and come up with new ways to sell the same things I’m already selling.  It’s about freshness and newness and requires creativity.

 Here’s the problem.  I’m very visual, and cubicles are very…well…square.  Gray.  Impersonal.  Boring.

 So I am on a one-woman campaign to change that!  It involves shopping, which is once again one of my favorite things to do…yea!

 The first thing I did was tack up a bunch of things to make it useful like phone listings and instructions.  Then a calendar.  Of course the absolutely necessary photos of my children were a priority!

 I have also gone to a favorite new store called Trends and Traditions in town and picked up some adorable things:  a pretty painted canvas with a motivational saying…a huge chick-art mousepad about chocolate…fun magnets for the fronts of my metal (gray) shelves. 

 I’m home!

 Today’s purchase made me laugh out loud at the store.  I almost didn’t buy it because I didn’t want to show my true colors so new to the job (J), but I think anything that can make you laugh like that needs to be around to inspire me!  It is an adorable collaged piece that says “deadlines amuse me.”  Ha!  I’m going to take a photo of it to post with this article, because I think it will make you smile, too!

 Don’t settle for mediocre surroundings.  Even if it’s just attractive ads from magazines, liven up your space!  Bring something that makes you smile!

 And add a small bowl of chocolate to your desk.  We can all use a little more of that.

My Cup Runneth Over!

September 30, 2009

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Where to begin?

I haven’t written much lately because there has been SO much going on.  I had written about the Lord providing in one of my last posts…well He’s been actually showing off (a friend’s term I just love!) in my life lately.

I got a full-time job. Not just any full-time job.  A great full-time job.  A career.  A chance to mingle my education with my experience.  A salary!  Benefits!  A great company!  Work, yes, but in Marketing, which is what I have wanted to do!  I start the day after tomorrow.  What this means to my family is unable to be expressed.  I can finally pull my own wagon.  I can provide for my children and myself.  It’s a recession, for goodness sake! My cup runneth over. 

Then, a friend bought me a vehicle.  Yes, you heard that right.  Her and her husband GAVE me a wonderful vehicle in pristine condition and I am still giddy with the blessing.  Just in time for us when I needed to start a new job and wouldn’t have a way to pick my kids up from school.  Now my daughter can help with driving her and her brother to school.  She got a part-time job also, and it was going to be a real issue with only 1 vehicle.

There goes God showing off again…my cup runneth over!

Gratitude

February 26, 2009

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I’ve been watching too much news and I need to kick the habit.  It keeps me in negative thinking much too much of the time.

So I need to think about my blessings.  The economy?  Well, the recession will end and eventually I will find my ideal job.  Until then I have my jewelry business and a part time job that will keep food on the table.  No jobs?  I will have a Bachelor’s Degree in May that will eventually pay off, if not immediately. Weight?  Hmmmm.  Too much to eat – many people in the world will never know what that’s like.  Too busy? I don’t have to worry about sitting around bored or lonely. Old van with 196,000+ miles on it?  It’s paid for!!  I’m trying to learn the art of being more grateful.  My blessings may be different and less visible than others people’s, but they are worthy of gratitude and thanks.

The bracelet above is from my “Fiesta” line and is for sale at my etsy site: www.sweetanniesjewelry.etsy.com.  I make quite a few variations and earrings to match – they work especially great with summer clothes.  Check them out and let me know what you think!

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