Learning to Let Go…

September 10, 2011

When you were 4 days old I went to the grocery store for the first time since you were born…it felt like I had left my arm behind.  You were a part of me.  I cried the whole time.

When you were 5 years old I put you on a school bus on the first day of kindergarten.  I smiled to cover my anxiety and sadness.  I followed the bus and watched you get off and go into the school.  I cried all day and didn’t stop until you got off the bus at the end of the day.

When you were 13 I had to let you go every other weekend.  I had to give you up for half of every holiday… and I died a little inside every time.  It never got easier, and I cried a lot. 

Today I moved you into your college dorm.  I helped you unpack and feather your new nest.  I am so excited for you, and I tried so hard to ease your fears, while pushing down my own. 

It seems like yesterday you were that newborn that I couldn’t bear to leave.  Today I drove away with an aching heart…sadness, pride, joyousness and thankfulness all fighting within me…

…while I cried.


I saw this on Alltop and thought it was really cool.  I have always loved crayons.  Coloring was my first love, and color is my drug of choice.  I used to be SO excited at that new box of crayons every fall for school…my Mom was the best because I always got the BIG box…you know, the one with several tiers of crayons…oodles of colors and pointed little tips.  Heaven.   Sheer heaven. 

Crayola released its first box of crayons back in 1903 with eight standard colors — red, orange, yellow, green, blue, violet, brown and black — and a price tag of five cents. Nowadays, a box of crayons weighs about five pounds and contains as many as 150 crayons. How many shades of pink can even exist? Well, according to the crayon kings, about 14.

Weather Sealed has a interesting chart showing the evolution of Crayola colors over the past 107 years. Looks like Crayola will need to invent some sort of Costco-sized crayon tub to hold its explosion of color because, by 2050, the company will boast 330 different crayons if it continues at the current growth rate of 2.56 percent annually.

My kids are teenagers and out of that crayon buying stage.  Kind of a shame.  I liked being the best mom ever because I always bought them the biggest box of crayons.


April 15, 2008

I Love You Mom

This bead collage was created out of loose beads lying on my beading table by my son as a surprise for me.  It says “I Love you, Mom”.   Awwwwwwww!!


Any day now.  It’s coming soon!  My graphic/web designer is hard at work getting my site ready to go up.  I am so excited!  It’s been a long journey – longer than I initially planned on.  There were so many decisions to be made.  I have spent many sleepless nights agonizing over every detail…wanting to get it just right.  I finally got to the point where I knew I just had to leap and figure it all out on the way down.  Hopefully that leap will lead to Internet opportunities for business growth.

I’ve got all sorts of plans.  Thinking of things to do is the easy part.  Implementing them is hard.

It’s scary, also, because putting my jewelry pieces out there is a risk.  Will people like them?  It is such a personal thing – my “babies” are being put on display and are being judged!  What will the world think?

We will soon find out…I’ll keep you posted!

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